It was around October 15, 2015, and I was determined not to take part in the grueling National Novel Writing Month, which requires participants to write a 50,000-word novel in 30 days. I had spent the previous November churning out 1,666 or so words a day, and I did not think I could handle the commitment again. I admit, it did not have to be 1,666 intelligible words. It was, for me, practicing stream-of-consciousness writing as fast as I could. Nope . . . did not want to do that again.
And then around October 15 I became aware of urgings from Spirit that I had a topic I needed to address. It slowly bubbled into my consciousness that I needed to write about the Umpqua Community College shooting, which had occurred 15 days earlier, when a shooter entered an English class on the Oregon campus and fatally shot eight students and their professor. This struck close to home for me. I had been a community college English professor and I sensed a close connection to this incident.
So . . . on the first day of November 2015, I started writing what would become Tsunami of Light. It relates the event of a campus shooting from the perspective of the spirits who, through an act of violence, left their bodies and their subsequent call to serve on the other side and act before another shooting occurred. The book was a group effort. I am a mystic and I often work in conjunction with spirits, teachers, and masters on the other planes of existence. We wrote it and finished it by midnight November 30, 2015. I had it professionally edited, had a beautiful cover created, published it independently, and never marketed it. My editor had returned the manuscript, writing “Definitely interesting. A different route for you. A strong and wonderful and needed message though. I liked it.” She is the only person who has read the book. Why? Because every time I started to gear up to market it, another campus shooting would occur, and I felt that it would be disrespectful and perhaps inappropriate to do so when there were people who were suffering through yet another act of violence.
I realized this week, though, after the shooting in Parkland, Florida, that there might never be a moment I could release this book and that, perhaps, sending it out into the universe might give someone, somewhere a moment of solace and perhaps provide a space of reflection. With that in mind, I am providing a link to the book below. It is my abiding hope that it serves spirit on both sides of the veil. http://amzn.to/2sJ5Sp7
What do we mean when we talk about the concept of Creation? Are we talking about THE Creation, i.e., the moment everything came into being? Do we even believe there is A moment that represents that creation? Is everything simply being created on a never-ending spiral, the beginning of which is unfathomable? I know the word Creation harbors the idea of Creationism, i.e., that everything was brought into being over a six-day period, 6,000 or so years ago. And that that idea of Creation is set in opposition to Evolution, wherein everything starts at some distant moment in time in some roiling pool of chemicals, the origins of which remain a question. I don’t really like that idea because on the one hand, as the daughter of a paleontologist, I cannot ever believe in the 6,000-year or so story and on the other hand, I have always questioned evolution as the total answer to how we are what we currently are because, as I read recently, we are in fact different from the other creatures on the planet, which do exhibit the forward momentum of evolution.
When I think of the moment of Creation in relationship to the spiritual aspects, I am beginning to believe that the idea of one Creator, as a personified being, is not satisfactory. I believe the Creative Spirit brought into being the All in and through the energy of love. Then, what is the Creative Spirit, other than the first expression of the All, which, as I mentioned last week, means we are All part of the first and the ongoing aspects of creation. Since we are all interdependent spirits, comprising a oneness, then we could consider ourselves as both the Creative Spirit and the creation of that Spirit, i.e., that we are both the created and the creators. And it is this aspect that needs consideration at this moment, I believe.
As I look around the room in which I am sitting, I can see all sorts of physical items that were created. I can even note that as I prep for this episode, I am creating, with help from other spirits, something that has never existed before. Someone created the chair I am sitting on and the computer I am typing on. The glasses I am seeing through were created, as well as the coffee cup I am drinking from. Everything seems to be created by someone whose current state of being was created, as a potential, in the “first” moment of creation. But, doesn’t that moment of creation continue to evolve? And that is where that word comes into play here, we are indeed evolving, changing, for better or worse with every breath we take on this plane. And these items, all of them, are comprised of atoms and molecules, and, my personal favorite, nano-particles, that exist to formulate a solidity with which we can act and interact.
I have often said that the differences of solidity are created by differing rates of vibrations of these energized particles. If I could speed up the molecules in my hand to match the speed of those in the desk I am sitting at, I should be able to slip my hand between the atoms. This, however, does not seem a practical or useful action to take at this time, because it would preclude me from typing on this physical illusion of a computer sitting on the physical illusion of the desk. Why do I call these things an illusion? Because the solidity seems to me to be an illusion, comprised as it is by the same basic atoms and molecules arranged in myriad ways to form items that can act and react with our physical selves, which, indeed, are simply forms that house our spirits while we engage in learning lessons on this physical plane.
So, how does this relate back to the original topic of Creation? Because we continue to be created and to be creators. We create the tools we need to function and we create art to sustain us. In addition, we create non-physical aspects of our world, like the basic beliefs of societies and the ideas that hold communities together. Unfortunately, we also create the ideas that serve to separate us and that work against our wellbeing. We are, in every sense, continually creating our world, and we can serve as creators of destruction, division, and hate, or as creators of compassion and empathy using the same energy of love that we used in the illusion of the beginning.
Recently, after a fairly remarkable psychic fair here in Rochester, I came away with the desire to explore the idea of Lemuria and what it means to me. We will explore this further in future episodes, but it has become apparent that the Creative Spirit is really us. In the beginning there was us, an amazing group of unified spirits that wanted to explore ways of being and learning and searching in order to raise the spiritual consciousness to a new and even more vibrant plane of existence. In no way does this revelation take away from the centrality of a being I call the Creative Spirit, that is comprised of the All, which does really mean all of us and that, in a way I am somewhat amazed and awed by, brings us to the idea selected before this revelation, which is the topic of this week’s blog post, Ubuntu.
I read a story about an anthropologist who went to Africa for some sort of research project. He gathered a group of children and pointed to a pile of fruit he had placed some distance away. He told them that the child who reached the fruit first could have all of it. He readied them at the starting line and said go. The children took each other’s hands and ran together so they all reached the fruit at the same time. When he caught up with the children he asked why they had done this, since a sole runner would have had all the fruit to himself/herself. They explained by turning to the concept of Ubuntu: “How can one of us be happy if one of is sad.”
Ubuntu is “a quality that includes the essential human virtues of compassion and humanity.” It is also defined as: “‘I am what I am because of who we all are.” It makes the community rather than the individual the essential center of a group’s existence.
I think when we look at our essential beings, this is a reflection of that. We are all One spirit expressed diversely through various planes in this universe. We are connected through what is known as the interdependent web, which binds us one to the other through and in the energy of love. One of the aims of incarnating is to discover how we can manifest that oneness while in the illusion of separateness, that is, existing in different bodies. I believe this experience would help to elevate the vibrational frequency of the One because while in the body we are most like our true selves when we work through our lives with empathy and compassion, i.e., when we practice Ubuntu. And because we are being challenged by being separated, we need to discover ways to express these positive attributes.
When we practice the concept of Ubuntu, we do not think about our lives as separate from one another wherein one person succeeds at the expense of the others, but as a community all growing and sharing in this time and space.
Can you imagine a group of people all working toward a positive goal with no thought of individual advancement but only for the good of the All? That would be the essence of Ubuntu at work in and through the energy of love.
In his book The Little Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupery shares that “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
Somewhere along the way, I became aware that the best description of what I do as a mystic is to see and hear with the eyes and ears of the heart. It is a discernible sensation that in the area of my heart I am sensing sights and sounds. While I understand the correspondences between the physical and etheric senses, I would have imagined that these lined up logically so that the eyes of both were located in the area of my physical eyes and the ears are located in the area of my physical ears. As I write these words, or, as these words are dictated through me by those on the other plane, I am aware that this has never really been true. All of the perceptions I receive seem to resonate in the area of my heart and my solar plexus. There seems to be a certain logic in this in that when I allow healing to flow through me, it often feels as though it enters through the top of my head, flows through my heart/solar plexus area, and out through my hands. When I heal, sometimes it seems that the energy, often in the form of a green glitter, emanates from this same area toward the person needing healing. I am given the image of a sponge which absorbs liquids and then, when squeezed, releases these. So, in other words, I am very aware that there is a correlation between my heart and the ability to perceive sensory-like input entering from other parts of this and other planes.
The heart chakra is that of love and kindness and the solar plexus chakra is that of the self center that supports confidence in moving through life. So when I am listening and hearing with the heart, this is supported by the knowledge that I am confident in the messages I am receiving. But what does it mean to hear and see with the heart?
When I hear or see with my physical ears and eyes there is often a distortion in what I am perceiving either because of a certain loss of accuracy in absorbing stimuli due to discrepancies in the mechanisms that allow these perceptions, i.e., I am nearsighted and have a slight hearing loss from an illness when I was much younger, or because there is a measure of interference in the transmission of the stimuli from their source, distortions based on clarity or because of interference between the source and my receptors, like a loud noise mitigating my ability to hear a message being spoken to me by someone across the room. The communication and its purpose lack a certain clarity, which means my understanding of the message is lessened.
When I listen or see with my heart, the clarity is far greater, even though sometimes the stimuli are coming from another plane. When I use my heart to perceive input, the information is not being filtered through my consciousness, but rather absorbed directly through my intuition. The information is not censored through my ego mind, but rather perceived in purest form by my intuitive mind. I hear sounds and see pictures as transmitted in their original form, without distortion. There is, indeed, a clarity that is beyond what a physical sense would perceive.
And where are these stimuli coming from? Well, when I give a reading, they are coming from the other side of the veil, from loved ones who have passed on. They speak and let me know what they look like and show me items or situations my client can receive as verification of the survival of that which is commonly referred to as death. My clients’ loved ones are not dead, they have merely transitioned to the other side.
I also receive visual and aural messages from guides, teachers, and sometimes masters, as I am receiving now as I write. When I pause for a moment, and focus my awareness in my heart area, I can perceive the ideas they are asking me to type. It is like taking dictation, but there is always a momentary pause for clarification if I am not sure of exactly the words I need to capture because the idea is often presented in whole form and needs to be disseminated into individual words for typing, as is the case in this sentence I am typing now. I am always grateful for their input because it makes my job a lot easier, because it feels like a group effort. Which it is.
When I hear and see with the heart it can best be described as clairvoyant or clairaudient, because I am not using my physical senses at all. The stimuli are received in my etheric body, analyzed through my intuition, and passed on to my conscious mind so that I can type them, use my physical voice to transmit them, or simply use the input for my own awareness.
Beyond all this, though, is another level of hearing and seeing with the heart, and this is the basis for empathy. When we can perceive with the heart, we are listening to or seeing the state of being of another spirit’s experience in the physical body and can respond to that experience either with shared joy or solace. In other words, it is by hearing and seeing with the ears and eyes of the heart that we can perceive another person’s state of being and can allow ourselves to experience the empathetic impulse. We are drawn closer by the communication, coming as it is from spirit to spirit. We can be in the same room as the other person or people or across vast stretches of space and even time. When we perceive in this manner, we can respond from the heart and send healing to those who need it.
Right now, one of the problems we see occurring is that people in power have lost their empathy, have ceased to perceive with the ears and eyes of the heart, have indeed closed down their hearts so they can follow a path of unreasoning avarice and ego-driven lust for power. We have the ability to open our hearts and send these people healing and love that their hearts may once again be open to those of others, many of whom they are hurting by their isolation. It is time to call for a reawakening of empathy and compassion.
The exercise for this week is to sit quietly and enter into a state of awareness of the sensations being perceived in the area of you heart and solar plexus. Know with confidence that you are receiving information through your etheric senses and know that this is an awakening of empathy. And then, when you have that awareness glowing within, send the idea of healing and peace out into your community, the nation, and the world.
If not now, when? If not us, who?
When we live in the light and serve as lightworkers it is both a choice and a calling. We chose to be incarnated to help to serve humanity and the planet it lives on and the universe it revolves within with compassion, empathy, grace, and love. We chose to answer the call to live a life so full of love that the light energy is evident as we move through our day. Are we perfect in this endeavor? Not by a long shot. There have only been a few that have risen to that higher level while incarnate and it is not perfection that is the measure of their success, but their ability to love through the challenges of the darkness, to lift others up and into the light, and to stand beside them. These are masters whose connection to the grace of the Creative Spirit is a bond we all have, but few recognize. Yes, we chose to live in and of the light so we can serve through the energy of love.
But, it is also a calling. We are called with a clear intent to move beyond our daily impulses and further into the realm of parting the darkness and letting our light shine into the unlit corners that fill with the energies of those who work only in and of the ego. We are called to offer solace and a space of peace and acceptance to those who are afflicted by those living within the darkness.
Lightworkers are increasing in number or at least in courage, because it takes courage to face the darkness, call it out for what it is, and send light to vanquish it. It takes courage to stand up and speak out against the avarice that is accumulated on the labors of others. We are increasing in numbers because the need for the light is so exponentially increasing at this time that every lightworker is being called to bear witness to this love energy and open our arms to those who need the compassion this light brings.
Those who live in and serve the light are aware of the sensation of the light/love energy vibration. There are moments when this energy so fills every pore of their physical beings that there is no doubt that there is more than what we can see with our five physical senses. There is more, indeed, than the physical plane. The sensation is one of quiet effervescence. This amazing vibration fortifies and sustains the lightworkers’ spirits and their soul connection, one to the next so when there is a gathering of these lightworkers, whether purposefully or not, there is a melding of energy so strong that the light becomes palpable. Each person present knows there is more, so much more to do and by being aware of their numbers, they gain the courage to continue on the path.
And, it does take courage to serve the light, the courage of not knowing if the effect of their very existence here, at this time, will, indeed, make a difference that can change the course of things that are into the positive potential of what could be. When lightworkers become aware of their greater mission, there is a moment (or, in some cases, many moments) of wondering if it is a delusion, or, indeed ego that is driving their impulse to be of service. This misperception is not helped by those who do not recognize the light in this person, but, rather, are drawn to perhaps question the sanity of the lightworker. For how can such a thing exist, the doubter wonders. How can anyone be called to live in and of the light in this age of so-called advancement of the planet? The mundane, the everyday existence that holds people in its grasp is not a reflection of the greater existence of the All, but, rather, simply a space of lessons for spirits at all levels of learning. There are those who are progressing at a slower rate than their classmates, and these are those who doubt the most but need our compassion the most. It is within the realm of courage that we can reach out to them and gather them into our arms that they can feel the energy of light sent to them within the embrace. When we embrace these people, we embrace the spirit within them that reveals to them the connection of us all.
When lightworkers focus their energies on service, miracles happen. They are impelled to sense and heal the negative energies and forces working on the planet. They pour forth compassion, empathy, and love to heal those who need these energies, and they work to promote peace within communities. Their service helps to raise the consciousness of the planet and, in doing so, increase the measure of light available to those who live on it. They are open to the guidance of those on other planes whose wisdom can help to mitigate feelings of doubt and inform the spirit working in and of the light of the pathwork necessary to continue their walk within this energy. It is also reassuring that these beings offer their own level of light to protect and nurture the incarnate worker so that if their toil is not made easier, at least it is not made more arduous.
Lightworkers know that there is a universe of guides, teachers, masters, and angels on other planes that sustain their work and that within the light they are bound to these loving beings. They also know, when they feel the encroaching darkness, that they can call on these lightbeings for protection, as a shield against such forces. By imagining, which is the same as creating, a light pouring down from above and cascading around them, they can retain their center, continue their work, and know they have nothing to fear.
And now, here is the secret….we all can be lightworkers of one measure or another. We can all work in and of the light. We can all avail ourselves to the energy of love that is ours because it is the source of our creation. We are beings of light and we can all work to serve that energy, which means to let love be our guiding force and a beacon to others.
If not now, when? If not us, who?
When I give a reading or facilitate a séance, I always start by lighting a white candle and saying that I will only accept messages in and of the white light, which, now that I am thinking about it, is also the energy of love. Not just any love, but agape love, which is a spiritual love, the energy of which created us. We were created by and through the energy of love and that is where we also live. We live in the light of love. Each day, we see examples of those who have closed their eyes to this light and have, instead, chosen to focus their energies on the energies that are not in and of the light of love. How can these negative energies exist when everything is connected in the interdependent web, which connects through these positive energies? The answer is that free will allows us to choose to work within this love light or within the darkness, which is created by ego, not by spirit. If we were spirits without any need to learn and to grow, we would not be having a physical experience and therefore we would not be connected to the ego, which exists in the physical plane and not the spiritual one. Ego is not connected to the etheric body, the spiritual body, but, rather, solely to the physical one. Ego is part of the consciousness of the physical being.
This is a revelation I had when considering where the darkness comes from. It is not a part of the Creative Spirit’s creation of the All. It appears that we, as incarnate spirits, created the ego as part of our consciousness that resides in our physical bodies. I had always wondered about where the darkness and dark energies came from as these were not part of the original aspect of the All and it never occurred to me that it was incarnate humankind that created these negative forces. When filtered through the emergence of the ego, though, it makes perfect sense that we could become creators of base forms, known as negative elementals, in which to house these energies. So, the ego of the physical being, practicing a toxic level of ego awareness, created the darkness and the dark beings. This serves to create more lessons for those of us dedicated to working within the light, otherwise known as Lightworkers, because confronting these negative forces nurtures and enhances our compassion and empathy as we seek to overcome the darkness. In others words, we raise our vibrations as we confront and overcome the dark forces.
Lightworkers have egos but they choose to place altruism above egoism. An antonym of ego is altruism: “the belief in or practice of disinterested and selfless concern for the well-being of others.” As we become more confronted by the extreme egotism of those in our government who only practice self-centeredness and self-gratification, we are impelled to work against these forces by increasing our altruistic practices, by giving to others through the mindfulness of community.
The practice of mindfulness can help to diminish the power of the ego as much as possible, to take the physical self out of the equation and focus, through the spirit, on others. To be mindful of others is part of the practice of spiritual love. And we can strive to mitigate the power of those who live in and of the ego. We can send light and love outward to those who are working with a deficit of these qualities and, further, we ourselves can strive to always, in all moments, act within the light and energy of love. And we can join together so that our spirits can co-exist in community to raise positive energy to overcome the darkness.
On a clear night when the light of the stars reaches from the furthest distances in time and space and the silence grows into a deepness beyond sound, there is a peace that begins to well up within me that surpasses any earthly feeling. Within this light and silence there is an abundance of love that surpasses any other love. This is agape love, which is the love from the Creative Spirit and which is expressed between spirits on all planes. It is a manifested selfless and compassionate love. It contains no tinge of ego. It is the love energy that is the basis of miracles because nothing can break its vibrational pull toward the highest good.
As we stand up to the waves of acrimonious, belligerent meanness and cruelty that are flowing from those in power, we need to be fortified by this agape love and allow our spirits to thrive within its energy. We need to join together so that this highest love energy grows into a great beacon of communal love so bright and so broad it eclipses the encroaching darkness. When we allow ourselves to accept and transmit agape love, we can truly be the change we wish to see in the world. We can create miracles. We can overcome intolerance. We can truly accept each other as being a part of the same moment of creation. We can find the fortitude to stand up and stand together to vanquish willful ignorance and cruelty through compassionate kindness. We can, through agape love, through that spiritual love that is more powerful than any other force in the universe, create a more inclusive and nurturing world.
We seem to be sitting at the edge of a dark precipice that hides what could be impending doom or, alternatively, the chance to fly. There is a pervading meanness and willful ignorance and selfishness that appear to be in control of our country. The world, especially the enlightened parts of it, are beginning to notice that things are not right here, and I can almost feel a wave of compassion coming toward us as though the world knows we are not in charge of our destiny as a country at this time. I suppose it is going to take a bit of time to begin to eradicate the darkness, and I am constantly reassured that another election cycle will help. But, in the meantime, we cannot allow ourselves to simply rail against the oppressiveness of the situation, allowing our weary cries to echo back from the governmental abyss, which at this moment, we are unable to change. Instead, we can look inward, find that spark of our being that is bright and eternal, and focus on that light rather than the darkness that is trying to vanquish it. There is no religion or political organization or power in this world, on this plane, that is stronger than that little flame that lives inside of us. It is our essential being, and when we look outward using that light as a beacon, we can find that others are doing so also, seeking a community of light. And the way to begin to bring these lights together into a blazing fire of compassion, empathy, and love is through practicing small acts of kindness.
When I taught English, I would have my students perform acts of kindness and then have them write about what they did and how it affected the recipient and themselves. I was always surprised by the few that did not want to take part, did not think this was worth the effort, and wanted some other way to fulfill the writing assignment. I always held firm and said it could be as small as paying for someone’s coffee or saying hello to someone who seemed to need a friend. It was the most reluctant among my students who were most surprised by the change such a small act made in the recipient and in themselves. The small act changed them, and they wrote with great detail and thought about the difference giving had made. Some said that they would continue performing small acts of kindness because it felt good to do something for someone else that was not an expectation, but rather, an act of love, what is known as agape love. The lesson was more about the act of kindness than the writing, but these essays were always among the best of each semester.
So now, in my best teacher mode, I urge each of you to do one act of unexpected kindness, perhaps even anonymously, and see if it doesn’t create a change in the world, even in the small space in which you live. Each act of kindness, added to the many acts of kindness can help, especially in this time, to bring the light of the spirit into the world. That light can overcome the darkness we are experiencing. Kindness is expressed through the energy of love, and we need to spread more of that around right now, and open our wings and choose to fly into a space of light, peace, compassion, and love.
“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” (Mahatma Gandhi) In this, we must first give up fear. Fear keeps us from being all that we can be. Fear freezes us into a stupor of inactivity and lack of will. When we give into fear, we relinquish our ability to nurture ourselves and others. When we live in the state of fear, we live narrow lives full of futility and darkness. When we live in fear, we cower in corners waiting for the next onslaught of actions, the intention of which is to keep us in those dark corners rather than facing the healing sun and taking on the enemy with courage and conviction of truth. As beings of eternal light, we need to take the reins of our lives and break through this wall of fear that has been created in order to control us. Full of hope and the potential for positive change we can overcome the darkness and return to living the lives we are meant to live. We need to acknowledge who we are in the larger universe and live our lives in creative peace and love. We need to love our neighbor as we wish to be loved, with reverence, respect, and kindness. We need to remember that we are spirits having a physical experience and treat our bodies as the sacred vessels that they are and nourish our spirits through mindful pursuits. We need to know and fully acknowledge that we are part of a great and wonder-filled experiment, that we are put here to serve each other that in that grace we become better reflections of the Creative Spirit, who created us in and through the energy of love.
“What a tangled web we weave when we practice to deceive” (Walter Scott). We have been entangled in a web that was created by the simple act of apathy, by allowing those whose interests are for self and self alone to inflict this lack of ethos and pathos and by doing so to besmirch our country. The deceptions that have been foisted on us are too many to count in a short blog post, but the most important ones need mention and attention. We are not different from each other; we are diverse. We each bring a unique dish to pass at the table of our humanity. But we are not different. We each carry that spark of spirit that unites us within the greater Oneness. We are not separate from the Earth; we are an integral part of this planet and we are here to protect it and nurture it that we may all, in turn, be nurtured by it. We are not granted certain privileges of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness; these are unalienable rights, given to us by the Creative Spirit, not the men and women who seek not our welfare, but their own. We have made poor decisions this past year as to whom we entrust our wellbeing. Those who seek to divide us, pollute the planet that sustains our lives, and withhold from us our rights need to be shown that the truth is a better foundation from which to lead than the web of deceit that they have created. In this, it is time to cut ourselves from this web and through a benevolence of spirit, demonstrate a more solid path built on peace, healing, light, and love.
Writer, Creative Mystic, Teacher, Consultant, Public Speaker